theintellectualbadass

It’s been a year (I think? Or almost) since I got on Tumblr. It was fantastic, learning how to manage the blog, following other blogs, and getting my first few followers. I experienced the joy of reblogging, knowing that someone feels the same as I do. I felt the sadness spread through the whole of me once I see posts about abuse, cruelty, and every little unnoticed thing the world is going through. I spent nights scrolling down to satisfy my want of knowing more about what happens in things I fan-girl in, knowing countless other amazing people, and making friends. Although it might feel a little different, I have that feeling that I would be leaving this little haven soon.

I must say, I’ve been having this feeling for quite a while now. The enthusiasm has left me, and I see myself closing the tab to go get to some other business. I do not say that Tumblr has become bad, but, it has lost its appeal to me. Every now and then I see people argue over pointless matters, I see friendships lost amongst the people I follow, I see too much sarcasm. The point that Tumblr has presented to me, to interact with other people regardless of heritage, to show concern or criticism when it is needed, to just share positive emotion (not necessarily being happy, you know, when you need things off your chest), I don’t really know how often that will show up from now on. It feels a bit sad.

I am not in a rant, or in anger, this might only be the feeling that you need to sigh very heavily, but the heavy feeling would not leave your chest.  Yes, it might be exactly that.

I’m not abandoning the site completely. I would still check my dash every now and then, see how things are going, what everyone is up to. I would very much like to thank every single person that’s been a part of my “life”. To every one I met on Tumblr, and to people I have become closer with through Tumblr. The effect you guys had on me when you were there in times that I was not in my best mood, when I just needed to get things off my chest, it would never cease. One day I will be able to thank all of you personally, I just know.

To the people I follow, though you may not read this, I want to thank you, for being an inspiration in my life. Your posts had been meaningful for me, and somehow give a positive effect on how I act towards life everyday. The hope and inspiration you may not know you emit does not affect me solely, but a lot of other people who needs cheering up. I pray you continue to create beautiful posts, sharing bits of your life, making us a part of it.

To the people who follow me, thank you. Thank you for putting up with most of my senseless babble. Thank you for cheering me up, for giving hugs when I needed them the most. You have all seen what has been going on in my life so far, I hope it has given you a good laugh, or a tiny bit of inspiration, to not make the same mistakes, or to do better than I did. Only yourself can take you so far. Do not let other people make you stay behind their shadows. Get your own space in the light. There is enough room for all of us, we just need to get there. I hope we are.

This is not goodbye, it will never be, there won’t ever be.